Stories

““Stories are wild creatures”, the monster said. When you let them loose, who knows what havoc they might wreak?” - Patrick Ness (from ‘A Monster Calls’)

Three years ago, I was confused about why I was diagnosed with level 2 ASD. As I viewed a comprehensive list of accommodations I developed for myself, it highlights a lifetime of masking and shunning core needs. Unmasking is a connected process between my gut, brain and body; it happens intuitively with trust, safety and authenticity. Unmasking (particularly honouring nuanced needs) is not a performance; it is a VIP invitation to a side of me, hidden from the eyes of most.

I used to significantly divulge my vulnerability and stories without consideration for myself, as if I had unlimited energy. However, as I evolve to realise the ownership over my narratives, I ask myself, “Is there earned trust from people to be invited into my inner world?” Consider this: Do beliefs of inclusivity and safe spaces need to be “sold” to someone if actions already evidence that reality?

Stories have significant power; worse so are incorrect narratives in the wrong hands that spread like wildfire. Stories that oppress need to be destroyed, while stories of those being oppressed need to be amplified. 

It's been a year since I embarked on writing my book, a psychological horror, choose-your-own-adventure novella. Queer, BIPOC, autistic, and trans characters are at the forefront. A long road ahead remains before completion, however, it will be worth it. I know it will.